2 Years, 5 Months and 25 Days Later

I met you in the virtual world.
We chatted in our spare time and exchanged personalized letters.
You came to me in the real world and you and I became us.
We shared our love and our lives even if we were separated by a six-hour bus ride.

You were not wealthy and that’s ok.
I was proud of your good education and the job you loved.
You were an inch shorter than me and that’s ok too.
I had too many curves on me anyway.
You had your habits and flaws.
I have my weaknesses and shortcomings.

I never expected you to be perfect even if everybody thinks you are.
I myself am not perfect.
I never expected you to give up your favorite MMORPG game.
I joined you in the game.
I appreciated your weekly bus ride to come to me.
I shortened the distance to a one-hour bus ride and came to you.
You were concerned about my safety and security.
I stopped my activism and advocacy.
You cared about my morality.
I became an inactive member of my sorority.
You expected me to care for you.
I tried to domesticate myself.

I put my complete trust in you.
I only expected your fidelity.
You be only mine as I am only yours.
I valued this in our relationship.
You were aware of this.

I guess my one expectation was too much to meet.

I felt the pain.
I pushed you away.
You just gave up.

I lost my trust in you.
I lost my love for you.
I lost all hope of us.

At least I still have myself or what’s left of me.

The pain has healed.
I’m moving forward.

I am at peace.
I gained my faith.
I have high hopes.

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Living and Loving: Some Helpful Rules

WARNING: THESE RULES DO NOT APPLY TO MASOCHISTS, PSEUDO MASOCHISTS, SCHIZOPHRENICS, PSEUDO SCHIZOPHRENICS, MINDLESS AND PSEUDO MINDLESS INDIVIDUALS.

Love is too complicated so there is no point in debating it. More likely than not parties will never find a common ground for discussions. Nevertheless, there are rules to help people make sense of the chaos that love brings. ; p

First Rule: Acknowledge that love is complicated. Never for a second fool yourself into thinking that love can ever be simple.

Second Rule: Know who you are as an individual before getting into a relationship. If you are at a stage where you still don't know who you are, chances are you'll bum yourself through the relationship until you lose interest.

Third Rule: Agree on mutual boundaries and limits. This will save you the trouble of wasting energy on senseless quarrels. Nobody wants to develop pimples or wrinkles from the stress of anger.

Fourth Rule: Know your partner. If you are not interested in knowing the good and bad sides of your partner, then what's the point in engaging in the relationship. You might want to think about ending the relationship for the sake of giving your partner the chance to find the person he/she deserves. If your life revolves around you, being single could be blissful.

Fifth Rule: Enjoy each other's company. Relish the relationship. If you are not at all happy even at the start of the relationship, you were probably fooled, conned or threatened to get into the relationship. If so, get out Right Now or call for help (Bantay Bata Hotline is 163, Police Emergency Number is 117). If you become unhappy in the course of the relationship, find the cause to raise the probability of saving the relationship.

These are just basic rules I personally learned from the experience of loving and living. This sounds cliche but hey these rules work. I refuse to say more. There's nothing more to say anyway.

I wish you all the best guyz!